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Monday. 4.6.09 4:02 am
I have been thinking... which is usually a bad thing.

I have been thinking about my life. While I was never bothered by the fact that I will be 30 late this year, I find myself thinking about what i have done, what i have yet to do and what I haven't done. I can't quite figure out if I am thinking this way because it is a down time in my life...or because of the impending 3-0...or a combo of both.

Like right now I am in a rut. I am unemployed and living with my grandma. I hate this. I can't say I was much happier this time last year while I was unemployed, but at least I had my own place. And living with my grandma isn't so bad...I mean she is a great person and i cherish getting to spend this time with her... BUT I am almost 30. I know that living with her will open up my avenue to home ownership and later this year she will either be living with my aunt or in a senior community.

Needless to say I am a bit depressed. I want to get away from everything here. I am actually thinking of ways that I can contemplate moving. But then I think I am isolated enough here, what if I went to a new city...I wouldn't know anyone and wouldn't I be alone there as well??

So at this point I don't know where I belong and I definitely don't know where to begin to know where I belong....so I just stay here. I evaluate my past jobs, what I want my current career to be and my horrible love life.

this is an on-going story...as I won't be 30 till December 12th.
4 Comments.


I think I'm having a mid-life crisis before I'm even 20. Is it me or is the world today moving a little too fast for most of us?
» Nuttz on 2009-04-06 08:27:07

i feel you. all these existential crisis can get to a person real bad. Just hang in there and you'd be able to figure it out.
good luck!
» mionggay on 2009-04-06 09:16:27

I'm worried about the 25 coming up next year... :/ I'm not sure why, I think it's because 25 is no longer officially "young".
Oh well.

As far as stumbleupon, I've never used it. I just roam the internets.

» ikimashokie on 2009-04-06 10:34:40

Ah turning 30 huh? From what I've heard, that's where a lot of the fun begins :)
I would also like to point out that moving to a new city would give you a fresh start! You may not know anybody to begin with, but after some adjusting you can meet new people...it could turn out to be just what you wanted!

PS I like all the songs you have playing in the background =)
» PinkPanther08 on 2009-04-06 03:06:35

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